i have been laying in bed sick since monday it seems to be getting worse by the day not better i am so irritated and antsy i miss my family and i want to clean my house

say hi to gilbert and the kids with love km

and then suddenly and to my surprise i met and married the man i had no idea i was dreaming of but he was perfect for me and better than anything i had imagined or sought after before

but i couldnt stop looking at the picture because it shows the place where i played for the first 12 years of my life

me um we didnt have disney games when i was five

and as ive been laying in my misery ive been thinking a lot about that penny and just how lonely id be if she wasnt there with me

i was born in orange county where my parents had lived in the same house for like 20 years they had both lived in so cal all their lives

we gave the universe one out- if grant found a job he loved before springtime wed stay put even though we wanted to go to cali really bad and even though grant had been looking for a different job for a long time

i spent a few hours organizing my yarn and needles into that armoire

all the sudden im 30 i thought id be driving a mini van full of kids and happily decorating my own home but life has shown me again that i am not in control and as i wait for more children and a sense of being settled

plan to be surprised

i know some people dont love the whole valentines thing but it is so fun to me i dont care if the greeting card company made it up- any day where i get to be pretty treated with sweetness have a declicious dinner and some romance is right on in my book

snacks NUTS i would die without nuts i love roasted almonds cashews peanuts i also love those roasted edamame they taste like nuts even though theyre not and nuts taste really good with a few slices of swiss cheese also deli meat slices celery with peanut butter on it a few whole grain crackers with cheese beef jerky sugar free snack packs stuffed mushrooms hard boiled eggs string cheese protein bars crudites and more NUTS

and then i realized i love her so much

cate and i went through some of the free options around the web for valentines to download and print

i spent a few years calming down my teen angst and attempting to grow up i loved san luis obispo i was ready to chill there for good